He´s the one that I want!

The time came and I am going to tell you about my relationship with John. He is the one I fall asleep with, he´s the one I wake up next to, he is the one I´m gonna by with, well, he´s the one I´m gonna beg to.....waaaait for it......mary me! :P Well, about the engagement story your´e gonna hear later. For the beggining, let me tell you something about HIM. First time I get in touch with this crazy lamsie pamsie was on facebook. As you know, I´ve grown up in Olomouc and during my teen ages I had there lots of friends with whom I went to disco´s, parties...easily we hanged out a lot. My friend Martin was one of them, althought he wasn´t joining us very offten. After some time, he moved to Prague because of his job- he is a policeman. As he uploaded photo "him wearing uniform", I couldn´t stop myself from making a little fun of him. And I was not the only one- some guy called John was giving him same treat as I were :D It didn´t take long and we start chatting with each other. He told me he is from Slovakia, but nowdays living in Prague. We´ve chat a little but that was it. For some time we were not in touch, unless I moved to Prague (cause of university and also my ex, Daniel). I had no friends in there, noone to speak with....then I realized, I actually HAVE someone to meet! So we went out for a lunch and for myself, I can say, it was a love for the first sight. But of course, I had to handle that feeling, because I had boyfriend. Anyway, I am not good at holding my emotions on, so me and Daniel broke up. During that time me and John were in contact, but then one of us haven´t answer a message and so it took us few months to go on a date. But when we went, it was like a dream date. We went for wine, we had spoke a lot about everything possible and at the end of a date we kissed during waiting on metro. But when the train came, he forced me to miss it! So we waited, kissing, for another and then again and again so it lead to hours spended on metro station :D A date like this repeated many times, but it never came too far. I had another boyfriend, for two and a half year I was with him but then I met with John again- and next day too-and next day too and then I decided to make a final decission. But I had to start from the ground, inside out. I knew that to make it work, I have to manage my life at first. I needed to make up my mind. To build my priority pyramid and try hard for what I want. I was ready to keep John and never let him go. I left the one I was with at that time, I moved out within one week and found another flat to live in. For the first time I lived alone, but it was necessary. I didn´t tell to John, what is happening, because I didn´t want to scare him as first and as second, I wanted to make him sure after I will be sure. And when that time came, he started ignore me and he didn´t answer the calls as well. After few days, he wrote me a poem during facebook chat. It was wonderful, but sad poem which was saying that he has another girl and he realized it was wrong to meet me, to kiss me, .... And it was like....I don´t even know how to explain it....it was like when you sleep, you have a nice, wonderful, live dream and then someone woke you up with saying you overslept! I wrote him about my feelings, I wrote him that I love him as a person and I can´t realize not to have him in my life. But he never replied. He never called. I didn´t saw him for one year. But the thing is, I was remembering him every moment. I wanted him as much as he didn´t wanted me. It was like crazy rollercoaster ride, that´s what my hormons were doing! :D Time by time I wrote him but he never replied. Until october 2012. I wrote him message and it took him three days to reply, but important is, that he did reply! We met and he apologized to me. I didn´t know why, later he explained me, that it haven´t ended up so well with that girl and they broke up after 2 months. But he felt shamed for his behaviour and that´s why he didn´t answer me. The beginning of the date we were just walking on the street and after some time we found one pub called Charlie. It was small wine bar and they were playing beautiful czechoslovakian love songs. I have no idea, wheather it was the atmosphere, wine, or simply just me, but he took my by a hand. I can´t say I wasn´t expecting that, but I said to him:"If you will take me by my hand now, you can´t let it go again". And he looked deeply into my eyes, still holding my hand and without any words, he gave me his promise.

I can say, since that time he is keeping his promise very well and he made me the happiest woman in the whole world :)

I admit that I felt pain during the four years it took us to get together, but I am 100% sure it was necessary to let me realize, how much do I love him. I also admit I did not forgive him completely yet, but every day he compensates it to me and he shows me, that it was the best thing I did- I waited for him. Finaly I can say without any doubts- HE´S THE ONE THAT I WANT!!!

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